Broken heart of mine

It's been too long and i'm lost without you..what am i going to do? I was thinking, did i made a right choice. Would i be better for me if i didnt meet you at all.. I'm seriously weak.. mentally weak. Always thought i could handle it well but now i realised i'm wrong. I choose to move on and i tried many ways but i was just going round and round..in the end, i'm back to you. I've been wasting time just to get you out of my mind...yeah u were once not in my mind, but you're hiding in a small corner of my heart.

I lied to you, just because i dun wan u to know that u're important to me, just to show u that i can make it through without you. I've made too many mistakes. I doubt everything you said, you said u still love me, but is that really true? Or u're just saying it to make me feel better? I tried to aviod, tried to reject everything you said cause i dun wan myself to step deeper and deeper. I didnt share anything out to anyone and that makes everyone thinks i've grown up, cause i can handle my feelings well.

I once tried to believe the words you said to me, and i gave you my heart..in the end u break it.. when i accept your so call 'love' and i gave u my world..in the end u throw it away. How do u expect me to believe u again? You said you love me..but how could u do that to me? I'm stupid, but i just hope that you dun treat me like a fool. During the period of forgetting you, i've already been hurt.. maybe i deserve it but do you think thats already been enough for me?

People are telling me not to think about it, cause time could heal. But by not facing my own feelings, do u think it doesnt hurt me at all? Pretending can be hurting.. the more i pretend, the more i force myself, the more i avoid.. the more tears are rolling down my cheeks..

I had enough of all these..and i just need a long break.. Please let me off...