I saw myself in the mirror..

Been here for two years and finally i got myself some new friends and got to see myself from their love story.

The first day i know them, they were still a little sweet couple, holding hands and kissing each other like there's nobody around. It was once a nice experience going out with them as i can feel the pure love between them.

Time changes everything and this is really true. Even a decision made within one second can change your life. And the love story that they went through were gone..

When one loses their love, mental illness strike into your life. You can't think rationally,you can't even control your actions. How terrible it is. And at this moment, you will be start thinking..."why is all this happening to me?"

Love is all about how you gonna deal with it. You can treat it as your car, are you gonna maintain it nicely? Or are you going to just treat it as one of the transport that brings you around and accompany you, and you will change a new car when there's a new model available. Is this the car that you really want? Can you afford this car? Do you think it suits you? Apply all these questions onto your relationship.. are you able to get an answer?

How much can you love a person? How long do you need to forget her? Or even, are you able to get her out from your life? U know what? Actually, u can,its just the matter of willingness. This is absolutely true!!!

I once had my own love story, i acted like my friend when everything broke down into pieces. I can't think at all and all i know is to shed my tears for my boyfriend. One litre of tears had been wasted. However, at least this one litre of tears wakes me up. Once you wake up, look back to what u have done for the so-called puppy love, you started to laugh at yourself, and really wish that there's a hole for you to stuff your head into it. And this all the process that you will be going through when a relationship just won't work out.

I am looking at my friend going through the stages that i went through. I'm glad that i survived, but i'm worried that he might just die in one of the stages. What can i do? Talk to him? What am i suppose to say? Will he listen? What position do i have to give him a lecture? But all i can do is to be one of the god that look out for him, and pray that he's fine and good.

My friend, we will be here waiting for u to wake up one day, smiling to us saying that "I am fine now".